How the Shock of Death Turned Into Something Entirely Different

Nearly a week now. I can’t believe he is actually DEAD. Can that really have happened to him? I’m so afraid of being on my own, rattling around in this house, terrified of the emptiness. Maybe that’s how Philip felt about death, terrified of the emptiness. He didn’t have a choice, he had to go into the emptiness. I have lots of choices, because I am still alive. So if he can do it, so can I.